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(OOC: Im still alive. A bit down under, but feeling better now. The antibiotics are kicking fully in now)

Who: Sora and Heartless!Laguna
When: Evening
Where: Laguna's cell
What: Talking
Rating: PG-13
 

Laguna had been days in his cell now, after having sealed door to protect himself and others. His darkness was wondering why he did it, and why he kept himself weak on purpose. And at times he began healing himself, but then he stopped, leaving the wound open to keep him drained. The Room was shrouded in darkness, the darkness almost blocking out the light outside the cell. The heartless was proteting himself. And he was protecting others.

Sora had been wanting to keep an eye on Laguna for Squall's sake and as he headed down to the cell to check the Heartless was still there, a sudden thump struck his chest and his aura grew brilliant white. Okay... weird. That was almost as though he'd been put under a Protect spell. Though, it was really his own light swelling to shield him from the darkness he was about to face. As he headed for the cell, his own aura of light shone brightly around him, giving him an eerie glow. "...Laguna?"

Greenish yellow eyes glowed as Laguna raised his head in the Darkness. The orbs moved closer to the window, but not all the way close. Soras light made him flinch, and it was obvious. "KeyMaster.:"

"...explain it to me, Laguna. I know everything there is to know about the Heartless... none have ever tried to protect people from themselves. Not even me, and I've been a Heartless twice." He crossed his arms, scrunching his nose up. He didn't like the fact that Laguna was acting different to the other Heartless. It posed possibilities of other Heartless becoming like this.

".. I have .. deciers.." He raised his hear, the greenyellow orbs staring down at him. ".. I wish to see my son stand by my side. I wish to live too see my grandson. Majesty gave me a power. What it did, I do not know." His voice was drawly. "I want to be able to hold my grandson.. without him risking my darkness.. As I am, I will never be alowed to see him. My decire to have my family.. outweights the need for darkness."

Sora's eyes rolled and he couldn't hold back his adolescant anger as he slammed his palms against the glass, his light suddenly brightening all of Laguna's cell for the briefest of seconds. Once that room was back in darkness, Sora's own eyes flickered yellow for the shortest instant. "You're a Heartless! You don't have a family! Leon's heart is breaking because you selfishly keep yourself in this limbo of places! Just stick to your nature of being a Heart-hungry beast and it'll make it easier for him to kill you!!" He shouted, eyes sharp.

Laguna gave a cry of pain as the light flashed around him. he drew away, the changes on him clear now. His skin was still gray, but was it a lighter shade? His hait was not completly black anymore, but perhaps a few hair was silver? Might have been the light thought. The darkness shrouded him again. "I have a family.." He rasped, moving back over to the window, staring at Sora. "I am still heart hungry, and even now I yearn to kill you, and take your heart. But there is also apart of me that want to laught, and eat icecream with my son and his fiancee.."

Sora seemed to hiss at him a little, in anger. Though, it wasn't healthy for the once Heartless boy to let his anger eat at him. His Heartless would come into control and he didn't want that. "You don't have a family, Laguna. I shouldn't even call you that, because Laguna Loire died at the hands of King Mickey Mouse." He shook his head, his glowing hands still pressed to the glass. "Leon and Rinoa are happy without you. They've got their baby on the way and they're getting married. They don't need a Heartless ruining it all." He gave a childish pout, his fingers drumming on the glass.

"Even as the keyblade master, you are still a child Sora. You are not open to the possibility for my salvation. You where two times rescued by your dark self, who say I shall not be alowed the same? What makes you so much more worth being alowed to live, then me? You know just as much as me, that aslong as my heart excists, I might still be returned to whom I truly am, but instead you do not want to even give me a chanse of surviving. What makes me so much more worth of your hatred, Sora.."

"Why do I hate you? Why do I think that you won't be saved by the light? Why? Why do I hate you?" He spoke fast, glaring at Laguna. "I might be a child, but I've seen just as much war and pain as you have. Maybe that taints me? Maybe I'm just so battle weary and such a young age that I can't see salvation." Sora gave an angry little laugh. "Why do I hate you? Because you're hurting Leon and I love him!!" He shouted, gasping and covering his mouth with both hands right afterwards.

Laguna looked at Sora, his eyes flaring yellow, burning in the darkness. "Love.." he drawled. "You love my son. That is the weakness that will destroy you Sora.." There was a bitter laugh. "You should make sure Majesty never finds it our, or he will use it against you.." His eyes turned greenish again. "Squall is both relieved and hurt to have me here.. Do you really wish to burden him with my blood on his hands, the dreams of killing his own father haunting him? If you do believe Squall is so hard that he will simply push that away after having ended me, you do not know my son at all. I am fighting to survive. I am fighting to.. become myself. I am fighting. I cannot hold on for long, and when I can no longer hold on, I am no longer Laguna Loire. But at the moment, I still am. You might not be willing to save me, but my son is."

"You're wrong. Love is the strength I hold... I love so many people, I hold them dear in my heart no matter where they are. They are the strength I feed off." He shook his head, slamming has hands and lightning up the place again for a little bit longer than the last time, though everything quickly blackened again. "I don't want Leon to kill you. I know how hard it is to fight someone you care so deeply about. But when you fall, not if, but when, I'll be there. If Leon can't manage it, if he falters, I'll finish the job myself." He shook his head slightly again, his smile sickly sweet as he looked at Laguna. "I may just be a child, but I know how it feels to ram a blade into someone's chest and enjoy every damn second of it." He laughed bitterly. "Even my 'pure heart' has darkness. More than Leon's does. If that makes me a bad person... then so be it." At that he turned heading away.

Laguna gave a cry again by the light. it was torture. he fell to his knees, hoding his chest. As the light had flashed up the room this time, Sora would see that the wound Squall had inflicted was still wide open. "And you think I have no love? What do you think is holding 'me' alive. My love for my son, for Rinoa and for their unborn child. They are all I got, and I love them endlessly..." He called after, curling up to recover from the blasts of light.